Thursday, July 7, 2011



This is how I want to do my 70's.  I need to start now being my true creative self.  I know I have made a start but now this first full day of my 54th year is the beginning of my new life.  Ringo was never the biggest star but he has continued to create and put his work out to the world.  I love his lyrics they speak to me about how to live.  He drummed differently.  I want to find my beat and be the me.

Happy Birthday Ringo. My wish for multitudes of  Peace and Love to all who read this post. 

Monday, July 4, 2011

A really bad attitude.

I am angry. 


There I have said it.  It is out in the open.  I don't think anyone is surprised.   My life is drastically changing and yes I was stupid to not to be prepared for the changes.  I lived in a fairytale.  A witch has darkened the sky and there is no house from Kansas to fall on her.  There is no Prince, only a frog.   I will not be able to name the imp.  No woodsman is in the forest.  Damn it my hair is not growing fast enough.


I will be okay.  Some day.  But not today.  Today I am angry.

Saturday, July 2, 2011

Can a camera make me happy?


I have had issues with taking iphone photos and then having the photos turned sideways.  Although I like the look of this one as it appears in this photo.  I have decided to buy myself a digital camera for my birthday.  I need to decide if I want more zoom potential or micro ability.  The ability to take great photos of the art and send them to art competitions, galleries, festivals is my biggest need.  My iphone is great for inspiration and i love having the apps to play with but I need clear, sharp, true color photos.  Any suggestions?



My creative process has been a little stunted lately so I feel good about just having anything to show. behind the bluebird was a bad idea.  The board should have been blue and the wax background in the tin should have been brown.  This would have made the bird and the music nest pop.  I may try to remove the bird and see if I can make that happen.

Writing about the bluebird makes me think of happiness and how it is missing from my life right now.  I am not depressed just sad most of the time.  I do make myself find small moments of joy each day and be thankful for those gifts.  My sweet dog in my lap.  A hug from my son.  Laughter in the midst of chaos.  Color combinations of my fellow workers attire.  Like I said small but needed.

I have made an application for a small local juried art festival.  I hate that I want to check my email every other hour to see if there is a response.  The festival is fairly soon and I need to make some work!  I know that if I am denied it will be stunting to my process but then so is every aspect of life right now.

When I started making art it was only for myself and then I started to share with my friends in our group, then my family, then my community, then other art groups, then a larger community.  I understand it is a process.  I create for myself but right now it would be nice to make some money off this creativity.  I hate writing that sentence but it is true.  If I can come out even on materials and sales I will be so happy.