This is a picture of the moon rising above the tree tops filtred through my toy camera app. I love the rustiness of the picture. The following is just a plane picture captured on my iphone. It is amazing how dark it can be and how brightly the moon shines over the treetops.
I am looking for all the brightness I can find right now. Working five or more hours six days a week is tiring in this heat. I feel so frazzled and unable to make decisions regarding my life situation therefore it is is the same unchanged unhappiness day after day. I know I have the ability to change this but I keep procrastinating and finding excuses to not make the telephone calls I need to make or do the paperwork that would start the process to end this free fall of an existence and become a whole person again. I really need to figure out who I am. I need a full time job with benefits. I need to know where I am going to live and how much I need to down size this gargantuan life that is becoming a hoarder's dream.
Oh, how I hate the whine that I have written to be read by any passing witness. Part of my unhappiness is feeling I am lying to most of the people I know about my life. But the person who is responsible for telling their story is not letting the story be known. Too cryptic? Then don't read further postings until the sun shines brightly but without the burning heat of the parched desert and rains bring an oasis to the land.
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