I haven't posted in a long time because everything changed and I need a new direction. The previous title of this blog was a direct reason everything had to change. Come on who would label their life as dusty and rusty but someone who had stopped trying. I thought I was clever because I loved old rusty bits of metal and wood. Long discarded items I found in garages of estate sales. But then I brought these things into my life and added to the clutter of my life. Sure some of this stuff is lucky enough to be placed into artwork and to be shown to the world but lets face facts I have become a hoarder of the art junk. This is a direct affectation of how I have been living.
Big changes need reflection to make sure you are going in the right direction. But I have to admit that the heat is making it a challenge to do anything. Working out of the home is also not making it easy. I love interacting with so many people every day but it drains my emotional and physical self to a puddle of mush. I come home to the heat and I want to sleep and then its time to go to bed to get ready to go to work the next day. Oh yeah, falling and messing up my arm so that I need pain medication is not helping this situation.
My life has been so gorgeous and I screwed it up. I was lazy and didn't want to rock the boat. I am where I am because of who I am. This is recognizable as truth.
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