Well, I certainly was feeling sorry for myself yesterday. But today is another day with the possibility of one good thing happening to bring a smile or a sliver of joy. Its funny but I gave up most of the control of my life a long time ago but recently I feel that this roller coaster has no end and I am in an amusement park of wild rides and trickster hucksters.
I need a full time job with benefits. I don't need a lot of money just enough to pay bills and the occasional splurge. I am willing to work hard and to the fullest of my capacity. The journey I am on needs me to be independent of anyone else financially. Those who know what is going on are shaking their head at my dilemma. Those who don't know are shaking their heads at my foolish dialogue. Why after all I am who I am. Why should I need help from anyone to make anything happen.
Trying to break free from being married to Danny Brooks is not easy for me. This has been my identity since I was seventeen. Losing part of myself to the foolishness of life.
Hang in there. Shadows will fade. I've been there.
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